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i've been bleeding
lighter fluid
for quite a while now, i've been
watching the sun rise through the webs
of skin between my fingers
i've been stitching up my skin like it's
an old pair of jeans, like tearing so easily is
normal
i think it's because this skin isn't
mine, it's an amalgamation
of other people's expectations and
screwed-up pieces of paper and
morning coffee or
panic-induced nausea
and breath made for a different set of lungs
i've been living off
caffeine and insomnia
for quite a while now, i've been
talking to the moon through the diamonds
on my window pane
i've been throwing myself into the glass like i'm
a sparrow, like i'm a blind bird
bone
i think it's because i don't know any
better, i pretend to be the queen
of the universe inside my room and
the ocean inside my teacup and
the lullaby i don't know the tune
or the words to
and a lover wrapped in plastic for the holocene age
i've been dreaming of
cityscapes
for quite a while now, i've been
thinking about running through the streets
until i reach a train station
i've been vomiting wildflowers like i
am trying to tell myself something about this
house
i think it's because my body is not built for
sunlight, it wants shadows of skyscrapers
in cardboard cups and engines and
yellow street glow lighting up
stray midnight people
and i don't know how to meet you halfway
i've been listening to
myself
for quite a while now, i've been
hearing the clatter of sins collide with my ribs
doing their job
i've been keeping this corruption in my throat like i
am still under the delusion that my heart is anything worth
saving
i think it's because it's the last thing i've
got, it might not be much but i'm running out
of things to care about and
i'm not sure that i've got enough
to keep on going
and i want to lie back and let the earth fossilize me, do some good even if nobody knows my name
lighter fluid
for quite a while now, i've been
watching the sun rise through the webs
of skin between my fingers
i've been stitching up my skin like it's
an old pair of jeans, like tearing so easily is
normal
i think it's because this skin isn't
mine, it's an amalgamation
of other people's expectations and
screwed-up pieces of paper and
morning coffee or
panic-induced nausea
and breath made for a different set of lungs
i've been living off
caffeine and insomnia
for quite a while now, i've been
talking to the moon through the diamonds
on my window pane
i've been throwing myself into the glass like i'm
a sparrow, like i'm a blind bird
bone
i think it's because i don't know any
better, i pretend to be the queen
of the universe inside my room and
the ocean inside my teacup and
the lullaby i don't know the tune
or the words to
and a lover wrapped in plastic for the holocene age
i've been dreaming of
cityscapes
for quite a while now, i've been
thinking about running through the streets
until i reach a train station
i've been vomiting wildflowers like i
am trying to tell myself something about this
house
i think it's because my body is not built for
sunlight, it wants shadows of skyscrapers
in cardboard cups and engines and
yellow street glow lighting up
stray midnight people
and i don't know how to meet you halfway
i've been listening to
myself
for quite a while now, i've been
hearing the clatter of sins collide with my ribs
doing their job
i've been keeping this corruption in my throat like i
am still under the delusion that my heart is anything worth
saving
i think it's because it's the last thing i've
got, it might not be much but i'm running out
of things to care about and
i'm not sure that i've got enough
to keep on going
and i want to lie back and let the earth fossilize me, do some good even if nobody knows my name
Literature
Cliches I Have Dated
i.
Anna collected stardust
like pennies, except
pennies are worth something.
ii.
Claire had ink
running through her veins; dead,
from an unsterilized needle.
iii.
Robin had birdbones
strung together on windchimes.
iv.
Sarah’s eyes were always
to the sky, and never
on me.
v.
Lizbeth took my breath away
with every punch to the stomach.
vi.
Rosalie had too many things
in her ribcage; emotional adrenaline
triggered her arrhythmia.
vii.
Emily left me
for a boy with starrier freckles.
viii.
I am one cat away
from a stereotype, or one girl
closer to a happy ending.
Literature
apprehension and inadequacy
i almost cut my hair, saturday.
but for some reason,
i just didn't.
i almost told my dad
that artistic freedom
isn't the only thing
he left (with me).
but for some reason,
i decided against it.
i almost messaged you tonight,
but it's been a long time since i have.
so, i decided i shouldn't.
(may as well make it longer.)
i almost named you
in this poem,
but i think maybe
that would be a bad idea.
Literature
what to do when he doesn't say it back
a)
you will give all of yourself to a boy who won't know you at all.
he will recycle your parts, make you stationary, bind you into
paper that he will gift back so you can write poetry about him.
you, too, say i love you quickly.
when he doesn't say it back, evaporate.
b)
he will kiss you in places you didn't know existed.
until him, you were a peasant in your body's palace.
he crowned you princess, broke the lock of your castle's gates.
when he doesn't say it back, load your cannons.
c)
you are a fountain pen.
look him in the eye when you write him letters on your skin.
when he asks to read them, surrender.
you have always be
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there's something so lyrical abt this???? love it